Depth Perception

The last few weeks have been a strong upheaval of life changes. My focus in life has majorly shifted (for the better) and the reality of what I can (and cannot) do. Some of those closest to me have had even more significant life changes than me. People have died and children born since my new year began. I went from worrying about the future to focusing on just today.

Abraham Lincoln said "The best thing about the future is it comes one day at a time." I know I should have lived my life like that up until this point but it wasn't until I was absolutely broken last weekend that I began to live that way. I put away my thoughts of what I should do 6 months from now, 1 year, 5 years.

I dug up a notepad I got years ago for planning that has two columns "Today, Tomorrow". I leave it by my front door and now try to make a record of things I am grateful for Today and things I'm excited/hopeful for tomorrow.

I also changed my quiet time from the train ride in the morning to the last thing I do at night. Lately I've been using late night TV watching to help me fall asleep and it didn't work. Now I'm down by 11:30 p.m. instead of 1:00 am.

More changes on the way but nothing too drastic...

List Update

1. Sista E had her baby before Christmas and she's beautiful!
2. My friend finally signed a lease for her new business, it will hopefully open this spring.
3. My nephew's first Christmas was fantastically funny.

Not a bad way to end 2008 and lots of fun to look forward to in 2009!

House Mending

I'm trying very hard to resist the urge to start too many projects and not finish them. Right now my bathroom is about 75% done with the re-hab. I look at the tiles every single day and wish they could come down like wallpaper. I look at the ceiling and see where I let the wall color spill over. But soon enough all of this will be done. Since I'm a recovering perfectionist it will never be as I imagine in my head. It will never be like my friends who have brand new houses or recently rennovated on a larger budget. It will be what I put into it (sweat equity) and George's too when he's free :).

When I feel really overwhelmed by all my ideas, I simply write them down in a notebook that I keep under my coffee table. That way it doesn't roll around indefinitely in my head and drive me i-n-s-a-n-e. It doesn't helped that I watched 2 hours of HGTV on Saturday, a marathon of "Sweat Equity". Luckily it was on basement finishing and garage rennovation for a workshop. But oy vey, if it had been bathroom rennovation, I would be worse off than I am now!