I spent a lot of last week thinking about how different my life is right now. I'm now someone's girlfriend and am comfortable with that label; I'm now a homeowner; I now have two jobs and I actually live alone for the first time ever. When I was eighteen, all I could think about is "I wonder what it'll be like to be a teacher?" Now I know the answer to that question- it's cool but it's also a lot of extra work outside of teaching time.
Some of these things above came to me and I brought or sought out myself.The goal and dreams fulfilled in my young adult life bring me joy. However it is also sad at time that my life is so grown up. I have real responsibilities now (yikes like an electric bill in the summer- wooah) and now people expect things from me (show up to work, do work and then do some more work).
I carry as much as I think I can handle on a daily basis, both literally and in my head. Yes I still spend my free time working things out in there and mostly keeping things to myself. I change my mind a lot and it's probably because I don't know what I want. My focus is on what the other person wants. While I don't a lot about work when I'm not there. I'm used to defering to someone else in that part of my life.
Somone recently pointed out I ask questions instead of just coming out and saying what I want. That plus I always carrying a lot of things together or "windows" as a book I recently read labeled having a lot of things on my mind. My mentor in college also noticed that in me and encouraged me to "stay in the present". He wanted me to learn to enjoy the joy of the moment I was living in, not reminiscing the past or planning the future.
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